Between My Apathy

I learned something about myself this weekend.  I live most of my life apathetic towards what’s going on around me.  I don’t let myself get affected by the ups and downs of life.  I am steady and typically unaffected.  Life, though, is experienced between apathy.  It is when I am worried, elated, sad, scared,excited that I learn things about myself, friends and God.  It is when you believe in something and take risks that you grow and live.  I am sure that I developed this condition through a tumultuous childhood followed by a coping with stress at work.  But part of growing up is learning when to let go of the negative lessons you picked up along the way.  I need to be less steady and more passionate.  I need to risk more and hide less.  I need to allow myself to be affected.

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